Goddamn Tired

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How far will you go
For your love to truly show
For her to not just know
And to feel it once and for all

Do you fetch her at the station
If she reached her destination
Around six hours before dawn
And was all alone?

Only a portion of your time
And was just a short drive
But you don’t want to strive
To all her “desires”

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Feelings on a Saturday Night

blog-bg4-copy.jpg“Do you think you weren’t loved enough?”

“I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it. To be fed so much love, I couldn’t take anymore. Just once. But they never gave that to me. Never. Not once.”

“So I made up my mind I would find someone who would love me unconditionally, 365 days a year.”

“Wow. Did your search pay-off?”

“That’s the hard part. I guess I’d been waiting so long and been looking for perfection. That makes it tough.”

“Waiting for the perfect love?”

“No… I’m looking for selfishness. Perfect selfishness.”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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ONE STEP AT A TIME: The 2013 Unclaimed Baggage Center Catalogue

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Welcome once again to my UNCLAIMED BAGGAGE CENTER, where uncollected luggage are being sold.

This year I decided to take the ladder to freelance film life. Let’s take a look at this year’s list of items for sale to see how my climb had been. Enjoy!

(The 2012 Catalogue is available here)




BAGGAGE DESCRIPTION: Cinemalaya Directors’ Showcase Entry
DATE OF DEPOSIT:  01252013
STATUS: sold to me

With Ms. Vilma Santos on the set of EKSTRA

With Ms. Vilma Santos on the set of EKSTRA

For me, this film was all about catching up.

After spending more than a year in regular TV work, the few film projects in the last quarter of 2012 were like turning the car key and trying to ignite the engine that went dormant for quite a long time. In this project with Direk Jeffrey Jeturian, finally, I was able to jumpstart the sleeping engine of passion inside of me.




BAGGAGE DESCRIPTION: Cinemalaya Director’s Showcase Entry
STATUS: sold to me

Actors and Actresses on the set of Sana Dati

Actors and Actresses on the set of Sana Dati

We were shooting this film in the same time frame as Ekstra so I was only able to supervise continuity for half of the shooting days. The movie was hailed Best Film in the Cinemalaya Directors’ Showcase category.
I could say that the experience was another step in the ladder. It was all about getting used to the life again, after more than a year.

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The Land of No Limbs

The American in the Land of no Limbs

Some time ago, in Baywalk, Roxas Boulevard, these metal statues were a picture of a happy family. Unfortunately, the wholeness seemed to have faded away as each of them loses a limb with every tick of the present clock.

In here, you won’t see anyone walking in the streets alone.  Everybody is always strolling within a group.  A group that we call ‘family’.  

And these groups create wonderful photographs.  A little boy grabbing his mother’s hand towards a toy store.  A girl trying to climb her father’s back.  A father kissing his wife.

These heartwarming photographs should cost millions.  Sights that are so touching that you won’t even notice that the people lack something.  Hence the name of our town.

To tell you the truth, all of these are just compliance to the law.  The law that is being implemented by our king.  The law states that people should go out with their families at all times.  Why? This is to ensure that people in our land  show an image of wholeness, a picture of being complete.  Something that we cannot achieve on our own.  Something that we cannot portray alone… here in the Land of No Limbs.

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Blood is still thicker than water

When all else fails, blood still has the power to overthrow outsiders, making it still thicker than water.

For Day 58 of the 365 Challenge

Reaching Out

“He has sort of a hard time emotionally.  Sometimes I just feel like I want to express affection to the old man, put my arms around him, shake his hands or be close in some way. But he can’t do it. He can’t do that.”

— Jesse Crumb when asked about father Robert Crumb,

from the documentary “Crumb”

Day 10 of the 365 Challenge